They say that life is a beautiful lie and death a painful truth. They're right. No one has ever made me feel more alive than the guy who serves as a constant reminder that my clock is ticking. 

He is my forbidden, shiny apple. The striking fallacy to my blunt, raw, truth. He is also my sister's ex-boyfriend. One thing you should know before you judge me; I saw him first. I craved him first. I loved him first. Eleven years later, he waltzes into my life, demanding a second chance. Dean Cole wants to be my bronze horseman. 

But my clock is ticking. 

See, I'm not like the rest. I have an illness. Sometimes I conquer it. Sometimes it conquers me. My white knight has finally arrived. Hopefully, he isn't too late.

他们说，生命是一个美丽的谎言，死亡是一个痛苦的事实。他们是对的。没有人比这个不断提醒我时间正在流逝的家伙更让我感到活着。

他是我的禁忌，闪亮的苹果。他是我直率、原始、真相的醒目谬论。他也是我姐姐的前男友。在你评判我之前，你应该知道一件事；我先看到他。我先渴望他。我先爱上了他。11年后，他跳着华尔兹进入我的生活，要求第二次机会。迪安-科尔想成为我的青铜骑手。

但我的时间正在流逝。

看，我和其他人不一样。我有一种病。有时我征服了它。有时它征服了我。我的白马王子终于来了。希望他不会太晚。